"The courage it took to get out of bed each
morning
to face the same things
over and over
was
enormous."
-

Charles Bukowski, You Get So Alone at Times That it Just Makes Sense (via shrugged)

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My dad is coming home Monday!

I need prayers for an unspoken reason. I know I ask for them a lot. But please.

Anonymous was like: I'm praying for you. I'm praying that you'll get through this and have better days 

<3 
I appreciate that!

Lately I have been telling myself that I don’t want children because of whatever reason I can make up in my head. And I am starting to believe it.

But the truth is that I want them so much that I have to lie to myself. And I don’t think I can do it much longer. 

I broke down and cried. It felt like my heart was being physically pulled from my body.

I don’t know if anyone can understand the hell I am going through.

And I don’t understand at all God’s will in my life or what’s going on.

11nikole said: I’m praying for you

Thank you. That means a lot to me.

My anxiety is through the roof today and I’ve done nothing but cry. Can’t blame this on PMS. It’s not even time for that. So nope.

I’m about to cry again.

"Why do you put your self esteem in the hands of complete strangers?"
- Helena Bonham Carter (via qoldlush)

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"If you look at the fact that you have a roof over your head, food to eat, that you are young and beautiful and live in a peaceful land, then no, you have nothing to be sad about. But the fact is, we are not only a physical body, we have souls too, and sometimes our souls get sick. If you break a leg you don’t just say “I have no reason to have a broken leg” and ignore it; you seek help. It’s the same when your soul gets hurt. Don’t apologize for being sad."
- My doctor when I told her I had no reason to be sad. (via hrive-ithiliel)