Lately I have been telling myself that I don’t want children because of whatever reason I can make up in my head. And I am starting to believe it.
But the truth is that I want them so much that I have to lie to myself. And I don’t think I can do it much longer.
I broke down and cried. It felt like my heart was being physically pulled from my body.
I don’t know if anyone can understand the hell I am going through.
And I don’t understand at all God’s will in my life or what’s going on.