God, I can’t distinguish your voice from my own thoughts. I can’t hear You. I pray and I pray and I hear nothing. I see nothing. I get nothing out of this. Maybe You don’t hear me. Maybe You won’t answer my prayers because I was never baptized. Or maybe You don’t answer my prayers because I am not truly saved. Or maybe You’re not real and all Christians hype You up because they need something to look to for direction. It makes sense to me that that could be possible. I don’t know. I just don’t know. And that’s how I feel.